Well, it's after noon already and I finally got out of my bathrobe! It's a really beautiful rainy day and I've had to close up the house a bit because of a chill sweeping through. I love mornings like this one. When I have a few days of running around, getting this and that done, it's nice to be home, making plans. Which is what I am always doing. Ideas are always running though my head.
I haven't written a blog in quite awhile, so this one may be rambly and without focus. I've been busy in the garden the last few days planting. Or out at the nurseries finding new things to plant. I'm especially excited about the new berry bushes I've planted. I can't find local sources for these plants, of course, so I've mail ordered them. I will possibly do a post about them separately. One more addition to the food independence I've been working for.
There are so many projects in the works right now. I've come to a time that I can really recognize the people in my life that put their selfish needs before mine. People who call themselves friends but are only there to satisfy their own ego and insecurity. In the past, I have fulfilled that for them, because I don't have a need to be imposing, or self-important. I can simply let them have all the "glory", figuratively speaking. But, there is only so much this girl can take before I put my wall up. There is only so much negativity I can handle. I notice that when you stop catering to those people, all of a sudden, you are not important to them anymore. They find fault with you over nothing. I'm just a stepping stone to them. Well, I'm certainly not perfect, but I have more value than that.
And then there are those friends who lift you up. I'm so grateful for them. I will leave it at that.
There. Glad I got that off my chest. It's up to the universe now. Sorry for ranting. Sometimes I just need to.
A little more about ego. So much of the worlds problems are generated from humankind and it's ego. You don't see anything in nature with ego. I am a firm believer that if I don't see an example of something in nature, than it isn't meant to be. Nature is perfect. Before humans came in with all their egos, trying to control everything, nature had a perfect system. We come in, fight with nature, kill it, destroy it, instead of living alongside with balance, and we wonder why Mother Earth is angry. The earth and it's unbalance is creating the storms and extreme weather to try to tip the scales back to medium. Guess who will not survive? The selfish, egotistical humans.
My next post I will be more positive and forward moving. I just get so tired of the small minded humans. Certainly a day in solitude with Mother Nature will shift my gears. Thank you so much for reading. I will most likely be around again.
